30th Dec 2009
Wednesday // 12am // 3 years ago

Feeling pretty shit right about now. fuck.
I have always considered myself to be terrible at drawing. I just avoid it at all costs for fear of failure. But I have come to realize that it isn’t about the end product, it’s about the feeling you get when you pour your mind into something, and just create.
Today I undertook an activity whereby I set a stopwatch to twenty minutes and wrote down 100 things I want to achieve during my life, no matter how trivial or seemingly impossible. I feel like my life is only just beginning. Today is the start of a new beginning. This activity has really taught me a lot of lessons, and the main one is that almost nothing is impossible, and it’s all about the small things here and there that make you feel happy, and shape the person you are and the life you lead.
There is a choice. You choose to complain about everything and make your life awkward and dull. Or you make the best of any situation, dance on the wind and do your bit to make your life and the lives of others as awesome as possible. So I’ve made my choice. One of them is to get the pair of cowboy boots I’ve wanted since forever. I’m going to plant a tree. I’m going to learn to dance. I’m going to worry less and smile more. I’m going to learn new things and I’m going to let go of the past (it’s done and dusted and uncontrollable). I’m going to sleep under the stars and I’m going to hula hoop. I’m going to help someone, even if it means hard work and getting out of my comfort zone. I’m going to make MY life the best that it can possibly be. And most of all, I’m going to learn about myself, improve myself, be myself and accept myself.
Today: T2, Lunch at Joe’s garage with kate and porge, ice-cream, park, Brunswick street, downloading tacky songs from iTunes.
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Today I tried chilled citrus punch and Turkish apple at T2, amazing.
This weekend consisted of colouring in, drinking mocha’s, Smoking cigarettes, Being around good company, cats, playing scrabble, being in suburbia, good food, laughing, drawing, playing with play-doh and feeling content. <3
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